One of the best parts of Christmas is the traditions and making of new ones. M’s family always meets on Boxing Day for a massive cooked breakfast (served nearer lunch time). My family tend to meet on Christmas Eve so that all of the family can be together as Christmas…

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I started this blog 2 weeks after we lost George. Missing him made me feel so alone. I felt marooned, abandoned, lost. My sense of self vanished. My sense of worth diminished. If I thought my post baby identity crisis was bad, the total loss of my identity was shattering…

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With each pregnancy I’ve lost, I’ve always known it was going to happen. The signs I was miscarrying changed each time. Sometimes I’ve felt less sick, weird dreams have stopped, my boobs have stopped hurting – but there’s one sign that is constant. And when I realise that symptom has…

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For a long time we have been painting with hands and feet. We’ve hand fun making cards with handprints, footprints and fingerprints. However, Boo is now at an age that she likes to assert her control and she isn’t enjoying this kind of painting at the moment. We have tried…

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Sometimes I feel guilty that I love being at home – I feel like I should get out and about more. But over the last year I have become more and more of a homebody. Home is a place of comfort and security. And we all love it.   Today…

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This week, my Christmas spirit became derailed and I’ve given in to the endless tears. I cancelled a much anticipated trip to London and felt that I wouldn’t be able to even fake being happy. Yesterday I had a panic attack when we tried to leave the house. I really…

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In our house, we have been welcoming Christmas and everything festive. This meant that even our messy play has a wintery theme. Boo has lots of little Christmas toys from last year’s advent calendar so I had the idea of making a snow scene. Earlier in autumn we used fir…

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So a few days ago I decided to make positive posts throughout December to help keep me focused on gratitude rather than loss. The first couple of days went well then the uncontrollable tears took over and I have been finding it hard to find real happiness. I have been…

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I don’t need to remind you, but things I make rarely turn out as pretty as I plan them in my head. These cookies were meant to look so stylish but I chose fun with my toddler over beautiful photos and I think you should too. Because Christmas to me…

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Today’s positive post doesn’t seem that’s positive. But it’s sometbing I am incredibly grateful for. I was prompted to write this after meeting a lovely friend yesterday. She lent me her copy of Saying Goodbye and a beautiful pin. I cried, of course. But I also also felt better for…

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