1 step closer …

1 step closer …

In three months time, it will be a year since we lost George. May 12th. I want to do something positive. I want to transform the pain into something beautiful. I’ve been working on ways to spread love and kindness through my guest series and giveaways on instagram. A way of saying thank you for all the love and kindness I have been shown. But I want to do something just for George. For George, Meadow, Wallace, Winnie and our little star.

You can see George in this picture. He’s on my beautiful necklace – an imprint of my tiny boy.

Since starting on our journey of love and loss, I have listened to Christina Perri’s song, A Thousand Years, a lot. The lyrics speak to me when I think of the babies. I will love you for a thousand years. I will be brave. 1 step closer. So with that song in mind, I have decided to take on a challenge to honour the memory of the babies we lost.

I am committing to running 1000 minutes in the next three months.

That’s 89 days

Just over 11 minutes a day

No problem?

Innocence. An excited family with a secret. Isn’t it lovely to be pregnant and have a little secret life all to yourself.

Well, the hormonal roller coaster of multiple pregnancies and depression has left me 3 stone heavier. I am more than a little bit overweight. And I haven’t run in a while. Running used to be my thing – loved it. Running kept my mental health in check. Then I fell pregnant with Boo and spent months throwing up all day and night. And when that ended I had ICP (a pregnancy condition that causes itching). I got out of the habit of running. But it’s about time I pick it back up again.

At around 7 months pregnant with Boo, my itching got worse and I developed severe pain. ICP support saved my sanity during a week long stay in hospital when I had no idea what the outcome would be.

When we lost George, I already had ICP again. Had the pregnancy continued, I know I would have relied on the support of a wonderful charity founded by Jenny Chambers. ICP Support works tirelessly to support women who are pregnant with the condition. Not only that, they lead research meaning that fewer babies are stillborn because of ICP. Let me tell you, when you are diagnosed with a condition that carries an increased risk of still birth (however small the increase), you need support. What this charity does for women, their partners and their babies is phenomenal. So it only seems right, that the charity that I would have relied on during my pregnancy, is the charity that I should fund raise for with this challenge.

I spent a lot of time being checked over in hospital when I was pregnant with Boo. ICP support were always there to help me understand what was happening and reassure me.

So, I am running 1000 minutes and I want to be sponsored £1 for each of those minutes. Last month over 4000 people read this blog. That’s 25p each. Any amount you give will mean the world to me and to ICP Support.


Text MDLD99 £1 to 70070 now to sponsor a minute of my run!

You can also find out my progress and donate at www.justgiving.com/fundraising/themuddledmum


A beautiful acer for George.

It’s good to finally find I an focus on positive action. I would really appreciate your encouragement because even though it is only 10 minutes a day, I think I am going to find this quite hard. I’ll be documenting my runs on my instagram stories so if you want to cheer me on from the side lines, come find me there! Wish me luck!




Surrey Mama



  1. 13/02/2018 / 06:26

    Good luck I hope that you are able to raise the money for the charity that helped you #TrimhantTales

    • The Muddled Mum
      13/02/2018 / 06:51

      Thank you – I’m trying to psyche myself up for my second run this morning but it’s blowing a gale out there!!

    • The Muddled Mum
      14/02/2018 / 08:59

      Thank you! I hope so too!! I really want to raise a big amount of money for them because their work saves lives

  2. 13/02/2018 / 09:54

    I wish you all the luck with the running AND the raising money, you’re doing it for a worthy cause. Remember that when you hit the wall so you can push through it!!
    Thank you for sharing this with us at #TriumphantTales. I hope to see you back next week!

    • The Muddled Mum
      14/02/2018 / 08:58

      Thank you! It’s day 3 today and I have a really busy day. Just trying to convince myself to do my 11 minutes anyway

    • The Muddled Mum
      16/02/2018 / 11:14

      Thank you! Me too! I’m on target so far!

  3. 17/02/2018 / 16:25

    What a wonderful, positive thing to challenge yourself to. I’m so sorry for your losses. We had a miscarriage two years ago and just this week got some awful test results regarding our fertility. But we are focusing on our lucky we are to have our son and to be positive. Good luck x

    • The Muddled Mum
      17/02/2018 / 19:32

      I’m so sorry that you have had bad news. I think that’s why we’ve stopped trying – I can’t take more bad news right now. It’s tough isn’t it? Having a little one certainly helps draw my attention to the positives though x

  4. 19/02/2018 / 18:44

    I am so amazed that you have the energy and wherewithal to turn this horror into positive action. I believe in you for 1000 minutes, and then some! You are a #strongwoman #triumphanttales xox

  5. 21/02/2018 / 10:41

    What an amazing cause! Good luck with your run, I am sure you will be amazing. You show such strength and determination. Thank you for linking this to #ThursdayTeam, it has been a lovely read.

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